Nothing Matters More

I am going to be completely honest and spill what has been on my mind lately.  If you read back in my blog (journal), a few months ago I was in an incredible spiritual spot.  I can't say that I am not happy right now, but I can say that the spiritual high I was on, has been deflated.  It bothers me- a lot!  I find myself busy with life, just like everyone else and it's easy to get caught up in the not so important 'stuff'.  As I fasted last Sunday for some sort of 'inner peace' this is what happened-

Isabella was really grumpy Sunday morning and I couldn't bare the thoughts of sitting through sacrament with her and then sending her to nursery (for the first time alone).  So, Justin went ahead to sacrament and then came afterward and grabbed the girls for their classes.  I could have stayed home, cleaned up and had some much needed 'alone time', but there was something in me that knew I needed to go to Relief Society and so I did.  As our relief society President stood up and explained that she was veering away from the subject she was 'suppose' to teach, I knew right then this was the answer that I was looking for.  She began her lesson on self reliance and self purpose... she went on about how we need to do the things in our lives that keep us close to our Father in Heaven.  Everything I know, but needed to hear!

Anyway, by now I am rambling.  But it was an amazing lesson and much needed for me!  I know exactly what I need to do to be in 'tune'... I just get caught up in the 'stuff' way to often... she handed out the words to Jenny Phillips song Nothing Matters More and I now have them hanging on my fridge... I hope they help you like they have me.  I was feeling alone...like a horrible mother...terrible wife...and all I needed was Him- He is there.  I just have to listen!

Nothing Matters More

Always in the back of my mind

Somehow I will find the time

To visit You (always soon)

To learn from You (sometime soon)

But in trying to be everything

I'm missing the most important things

To know You

To feel You

Help me just find the time

And remember my light

I will come to You today

Nothing will take Your place

I will push the world away

And I will run to You

Everything else can wait

Nothing matters more than You today

Always someone needing my time

Always something on my mind

Weighs on me

Pulls at me

Help me lay down my load

For what I need most

I will come to You today

Nothing will take Your place

I will push the world away

And I will run to You

Everything else can wait

Nothing matters more than You today

So, as I sat there bawling I thought this was such a perfect song and I couldn't help but share it with you!  I know we don't all have the same Faith and beliefs... but I do know we all feel!  We all have days where we feel inferior and this has helped me through these times...  I love all of my friends and family and I know we all deserve happiness.  I hope that each of us in our own way find that happiness.  I don't know how I got through the few years I did without HIS help.  I know He still protected and loved me and for this I am eternally grateful.

I will now get off my soap box...I love you ALL!!!!